There Goes the Fear Again

Do you know what scares me the most? It's not death, flying, heights, the paranormal, or spiders. While two of those things do legitimately make me a bit uneasy (1. I didn't fare too well on the outside deck at the top of the Empire State building, and 2. I had an encounter with a ghost once; no bullshit), they aren't even close to the apex.

My biggest fear is being mediocre. I'm terrified of going through life being just another average, forgettable Joe. I don't think that there's anything "wrong" with being average; I just expect more from myself. Since you only get one go-round in this world, I think everyone should.

So far I think I'm doing a pretty decent job of meeting my expectations, but I'm scared of becoming complacent. I think that in order to avoid this you need to surround yourself with people who inspire and challenge you. It seems like most of the time I'm the one that people are looking toward for inspiration... and while I'm absolutely flattered, I wish that they could understand how much of a little fish I actually am. In any chosen field, there will always be people that are leaps and bounds above you, and I can only compare myself to my colleagues.

In my quest to expand my social circle, I've realized that there are people out there who share the same mentality that I do. They might be few and far between, but they exist.

I want to meet people who make me think smarter and work harder. The sky is the limit.

-Nick